We love you!

Dear Mystery Baby,

I have been meaning to write something for a while now.

In my defense, you are trying to kill me. Or at least make me the most unproductive person in Utah County.

And I'm pretty sure you are working with your sister to wear me down. I know you talk to each other when I'm not looking.

You're 18 weeks old this week.

Your dad and I have known about you for a while now. A lot longer than we knew about Kacie at this point. It has seemed like FOREVER too! We still have 2 whole weeks before we even know if you're a boy or a girl. And it's driving us crazy!!

The doctor was like:

"We can get a better view/read of the babies heart at 20 weeks so we will schedule the ultrasound for then."

And we were like:

"Ummm, I guess that's ok."

When I was pregnant with Kacie, I was soooo nervous. I was afraid of all the things that could go wrong, most importantly that I would go to the doctor and they would tell me I wasn't even pregnant.

This time, I am not nervous. Just tired!

And sick.

I've been really, really sick.

I don't know what you are. I mean, obviously I don't know cause I can't see you. But I thought for a few days that you were a girl, right now I kind of think you are a boy. Tomorrow though, you might be a girl again.

Here are some lists;

Why we want a GIRL:

1) You and Kacie would have a lot of fun together

2) We already have all the stuff we need for a girl, even if a few of them have a few poop stains. (Hand me downs, right?)

3) Matching outfits!

4) Kacie has been perfect so maybe our girls are just perfect

Why we want a BOY:

1) Daddy's little buddy

2) Different/new adventure

3) Boys and girls can still have a lot of fun together

4) Baseball season will be epic for your father! 

Reasons we change our mind constantly:

1) Personality is obviously a factor, but so far, you have been much more active than Kacie, therefore making me think boy.

2) I think I was as sick with Kacie as I have been with you but I wasn't taking care of another baby and I think Heavenly Father was looking out for me as I didn't have insurance and going to the doctors would have been more than we could afford!

3) Maybe I just am more sick this time around because you're a boy.

4) We have had the name Kalvin picked out since before we were married, and it just sometimes feels like 'Kalvin' is waiting for us.

I sometimes look at your sister and wonder how I am going to have 2 favorite children! But I am constantly surprised at how much I love Kacie and then I know that my heart must have plenty of room to keep growing, because it just keeps doing it!

The other thing I just realized, I was the second baby too! So we will always have that little bond. And hopefully you will just come like 3 weeks early and we could share a birthday! But if not, we will share a birth month and it will still be just as cool!

Dad is really excited too! he always wanted a boy but now he even admitted to being ok with two girls. He even said it would be "so cute!"

Good news is, he still wants a boy, so either way, he will be ecstatic!

I probably need to stop writing now because it's making me soooo anxious to know if you are a boy or a girl.

It is DRIVING. ME. CRAZY!!!!!

No matter what you are, or who you become, we love you!!!

Love,

Dad and Mom