Dear Kacie,
You are 6 weeks and 5 days old today!
You are 6 weeks and 5 days old today!
I was looking through some pictures from the past year of our life. As I was thinking back on everything that happened and that your dad and I experienced I was a little saddened. Don't get me wrong, we have LOVED having you here but when I think about how exciting it was to find out I was pregnant and then tell people and watch my belly grow and go to our first appointment and be so anxious for you to arrive and all those firsts, I am reminded that I am never going to experience those same feelings again! Sure we want other siblings for you and it will still be so exciting but it will never be the same as the first time!
You are growing up so fast. You can basically hold your head up now. I say 'basically' because you get tired quickly but you just take a rest and then you keep trying to hold it up! When I hold you against my chest you won't lay your head down. You look like a little bobble head because you just want to look at everything but you don't have much control. You were an adorable new born baby but you are even more adorable when you can look around on your own.
The picture below tells three different stories:
1) It makes us look like terrible parents because dad is balancing you in a Bumbo, with one hand, on the edge of the computer desk. I am slightly embarrassed (don't judge!) that this is happening, BUT he was only doing this for a couple of seconds because he was skyping with his family and telling them this story, which happens to be story number 2!
2) One night you were lying in your bouncer peacefully. All of the sudden you started screaming, like loud and very sadly. Your dad picked you up and I noticed that your hand was gripping the back of your head! (this is what your dad is demonstrating in the picture). You had, for some reason, grabbed your hair and were pulling it, therefore causing you to cry! It was hilariously sad! I guess that is the downside to having a baby with so much hair!
3) You love to stare at lights. That's what you are staring at in the picture. I'm sure this is totally normal for newborns, but it is still cute. Whenever we go to the store, you just turn your head back and forth while staring up at the lights! It probably looks like we aren't supporting your head much but in reality, you are holding your head up like that! And if we push your head towards our chest, you just push it right back out and continue to stare!
You are starting to make little noises at random things. This morning you were just 'talking' to dad. For probably like 10 minutes you just laid there talking and talking. I like to imagine you're telling dad all about our exciting days while he is at work! And by 'exciting' I mean you're telling him how boring I am!
The picture below tells three different stories:
1) It makes us look like terrible parents because dad is balancing you in a Bumbo, with one hand, on the edge of the computer desk. I am slightly embarrassed (don't judge!) that this is happening, BUT he was only doing this for a couple of seconds because he was skyping with his family and telling them this story, which happens to be story number 2!
2) One night you were lying in your bouncer peacefully. All of the sudden you started screaming, like loud and very sadly. Your dad picked you up and I noticed that your hand was gripping the back of your head! (this is what your dad is demonstrating in the picture). You had, for some reason, grabbed your hair and were pulling it, therefore causing you to cry! It was hilariously sad! I guess that is the downside to having a baby with so much hair!
3) You love to stare at lights. That's what you are staring at in the picture. I'm sure this is totally normal for newborns, but it is still cute. Whenever we go to the store, you just turn your head back and forth while staring up at the lights! It probably looks like we aren't supporting your head much but in reality, you are holding your head up like that! And if we push your head towards our chest, you just push it right back out and continue to stare!
You are starting to make little noises at random things. This morning you were just 'talking' to dad. For probably like 10 minutes you just laid there talking and talking. I like to imagine you're telling dad all about our exciting days while he is at work! And by 'exciting' I mean you're telling him how boring I am!
You laugh sometimes, mostly in your sleep, and you smile at us occasionally. Your smile is so beautiful! It's becoming a lot more frequent and it's dad's and my favorite thing in the whole wide world! You absolutely love your Bumbo seat! Without fail, every time we put you in it you smile so big! I think you just love to be able to look around on your own.
The hair on the crown of your head is soooo long! It is literally longer than dads hair when dad get's his cut! And your eyes are basically the same blue as mine. This is a picture of me at 2 months (top) and you are 6 weeks.
This shirt says "Daddy's little Cardinal's girl" and this is your 'Go Cards!' Outfit... all red! It's a good thing red is my favorite color. You look cuuuute in it!
Sometimes it is necessary to receive advice that you didn't ask for. And sometimes it is helpful advice. But (for example) when my daughter, - that I've been feeding every two hours for the past 5 and a half weeks - cries for 1 minute after she wakes up from a nap, it does not automatically mean that she is hungry. You don't need to ask me if she is hungry because I know that she gets hungry every two hours and if it's been longer than that, (or even a little less than that) than I probably would have already gotten up to feed her. And yes, occasionally she will eat after it's been only an hour, but I have also spent basically every hour of her life with her since she was born, so I kind of have a good idea of her 'hunger' signs. Plus, it had barely been a minute and she wasn't even really crying, just fussing.
And usually the people giving 'advice' are people you wouldn't ever go to for advice anyway! Because the people you would go to for advice, know that it's not their place to give you advice, unless you ask them for it, and that is the reason you would ask them for advice anyway!
Now when I say 'advice' I don't mean like recommending a website or asking about how I do things, or telling me how you might have raised your child. It's the statements that suggest I didn't research or that make it seem like I am a bad mom. I'm not going to starve her, or let her head flop around, or drop her off the table, or feed her bad food, etc.
Anyway, this is my blog and I can complain about whatever I want to on it. If you were offended by my little out burst then don't read my blog...
Geeze, Kayla, that was mean!
Dad is absolutely loving that you are responding more now. You will follow us (with your eyes) as we walk in or out of a room. He gives you rides on his shoulders and I think they scare you a little so you end up super gripping on to his hair so tight and it's hilarious!
You are growing out of your newborn clothes and have started wearing your 0-3 month outfits. You even fit in to some of your 3 month clothes but some of them are a little loose.
When you were born and then just a few days old I think you looked a lot like your daddy but now you do look more like me. I can't wait until you are older and you look even more like me! Then it will be like having a twin and I can send you to do things I don't want to do and you can just pretend you are me... whats that? It doesn't work like that?
Oh.
I thought it was a great idea since I never got to be a twin, I would just give birth to one...
This shirt says "Daddy's little Cardinal's girl" and this is your 'Go Cards!' Outfit... all red! It's a good thing red is my favorite color. You look cuuuute in it!
I think know one of the most annoying things is when other people give me advice I did not ask for. I was warned it would happen before I even got pregnant and then throughout my whole pregnancy but I still find it annoying. It happens so often, like 4 times this week! I know that doesn't seem like much but for someone who gets out of her house about 2 times a week, it's a 200% chance that if I see someone, they will give me advice I didn't ask for.
I know that sounds harsh and I know that they are just trying to help, but really guys, I got this. And if I don't 'got this' then I will call my mom. Because there are a lot of things that I don't know how to do. There are a lot of things that I do need help with. But before I do something, or purchase something, or say something, I do as much research as I can about it because I don't know everything about how to raise a baby.
There are a lot of resources out there to help me. I can call my OBGYN, my pediatrician, my mom, my dad, my in-laws, my aunts, my family doctor, my insurance nurse, or the number in the magazine and books I received. I can Google any questions I have and receive advice from the millions of sights out there. I can read the 2 inch thick, 892 page book the pediatrician gave me or the 100 page magazine the hospital gave me.
Sometimes it is necessary to receive advice that you didn't ask for. And sometimes it is helpful advice. But (for example) when my daughter, - that I've been feeding every two hours for the past 5 and a half weeks - cries for 1 minute after she wakes up from a nap, it does not automatically mean that she is hungry. You don't need to ask me if she is hungry because I know that she gets hungry every two hours and if it's been longer than that, (or even a little less than that) than I probably would have already gotten up to feed her. And yes, occasionally she will eat after it's been only an hour, but I have also spent basically every hour of her life with her since she was born, so I kind of have a good idea of her 'hunger' signs. Plus, it had barely been a minute and she wasn't even really crying, just fussing.
And usually the people giving 'advice' are people you wouldn't ever go to for advice anyway! Because the people you would go to for advice, know that it's not their place to give you advice, unless you ask them for it, and that is the reason you would ask them for advice anyway!
Now when I say 'advice' I don't mean like recommending a website or asking about how I do things, or telling me how you might have raised your child. It's the statements that suggest I didn't research or that make it seem like I am a bad mom. I'm not going to starve her, or let her head flop around, or drop her off the table, or feed her bad food, etc.
Anyway, this is my blog and I can complain about whatever I want to on it. If you were offended by my little out burst then don't read my blog...
Geeze, Kayla, that was mean!
Dad is absolutely loving that you are responding more now. You will follow us (with your eyes) as we walk in or out of a room. He gives you rides on his shoulders and I think they scare you a little so you end up super gripping on to his hair so tight and it's hilarious!
You are growing out of your newborn clothes and have started wearing your 0-3 month outfits. You even fit in to some of your 3 month clothes but some of them are a little loose.
You are so scared of the vacuum! Every time we turn it on you freak out!
All the people at dad's work (mostly the girls) think you are the cutest thing ever, which is obvious. So I dress you up real cute, take some pictures, text them to everyone and then we have to put on a bib to cover it up. Even then you manage to get spit up on everything. It's kind of sad because then your outfits just get covered up by the bib! but it's the pictures that matter anyway, right?
You are seriously the best baby in the world! You only cry when you are hungry or have the hiccups. I know what everyone is thinking, that I am lying, but I am being serious. It is a wonderful thing!
You have developed quite a strong grip! You really don't grab my hair that much but the other day you did and you were holding it soooo tightly! If you look close, your fingers are turning white because you were holding it so hard!
I love watching your dad with you. It makes me fall in love with him over and over again! He tries to act tough but you just make him giddy! He loves you so much and will do anything for you. I know it makes him sad to leave you all day and go to work but I hope you know as you read this that he does it for us. That all he wants is our happiness and if it means sitting at a desk making phone calls all day, he will do it. He is a wonderful father!
You love him a lot too. You recognize his voice when he gets home from work and you love to just hang out on his shoulder. You snuggle right up to his chest and just love it. You won't snuggle up to mine because my boobs just get in the way, and then they call to you and you just want to eat! So I love to watch your daddy hold you on his shoulder. It is so precious!!
During the day, I have the hardest time not holding you and cuddling you. It was pretty bad for a while and so you weren't really sleeping at night. I thought that you were just tired and so I was letting you sleep! But we have been working on keeping you awake during the day so that you actually sleep at night. It is working! You still don't sleep as long as mommy and daddy would like to be sleeping but in a few weeks dad starts school and will have to be up early anyway... It's going to be dark when we wake up and dark by the time he gets home from work!
Anyway, you are spoiled because when you get fussy at night, we have a special pillow that we can put between us on our bed for you to sleep on. Unfortunately, 90% of the time you sleep better in our bed than you do in yours! We will be breaking that habit soon. I know it's not something we are going to want to continue doing but you're only going to be this small for a little bit longer and we are trying to soak it up while we can!
Last Sunday we went to our friends the Staples, new home. First of all, we are totally jealous of it! We can not wait to have a house of our own. Second, you got to hang out with your friend Oakley. She loved poking you! Her mom and dad kept telling her to 'be soft' or 'be nice' and to her that meant just touching you with one finger! It was the cutest thing ever and made your dad and I excited to give you a younger sibling some day. Are we ready to have another baby now? Heavens no! But when it happens, I know we are going to be soo happy and excited to see you interact with your sibling!
But until then, just keep being the cutest little thing ever! You make our lives complete and we love you so much!
Mom and Dad
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