Dear Kacie,
Why are you not here yet?
It is your due date after all and I thought that meant you popped right out at midnight!
I hate it when I am wrong!
40 weeks!
In the past month, every time someone has asked when I am due and I then tell them, the response is always one of great surprise. And usually the conversation started off with me saying something about being pregnant and then the person saying something like "Oh my gosh! I didn't even notice you are pregnant!" So either they just aren't observant or I look like I have a gut... a really big gut!
Sweet.
I have to admit, I ate a whole sleeve of Oreos already today.
YOLO right?
And by that I mean You Obviously Love Oreos
It's amazing that even after so many months of pregnancy I still learn new things. And that I keep forgetting things that I have learned about several times already and have to keep being reminded what they are!
Now I am craving cheerios... and pizza... and ice... I want to eat a bowl of cheerios, top it off with a couple slices of pizza and wash it all down with a big cup of ice that I can chew on.
The good news is that once I get to the hospital and I can't eat food, they will have an endless supply of snow cones for me to 'munch' on! So that's the positive side of labor.
Anyway Kacie, your grandparents (my mom and dad) are being kind of mean. They are praying that I won't go in to labor until Saturday when they get here. I really want my mom to be here for your delivery but also, I'm kind of miserable!
I am totally torn.
The thought of having to wait until Saturday makes me cry but the thought of not having my mommy here makes me feel bad and sad! I guess I just have to leave it up to you and Heavenly Father.
I heard this quote:
"Pregnancy is the only chance in life we get to assist God with a miracle."
It really has been a wonderful journey being pregnant. I honestly don't know how you can not believe in God when you think about how complex and intricate it is that we create life. There have been so many times that I just sit there thinking about what is happening inside of me and it just baffles me. It is just a truly incredible thing to think about.
If I ignore the weeks of throwing up, the endless days of nausea, the months of exhaustion, the sleepless nights spent in the bathroom, the awkward way I waddle around, the difficulty of reaching my legs to shave and my favorite, the never ending heartburn, I see months of excitement, anxiety, growing closer to your dad, feeling you move the first time, watching 'you' grow, hearing your heart beat, getting your room ready, seeing how many family and friends want to be a part of our lives, our testimonies grow, the first time we saw you on that old little black and white screen, your daddy lighting up when he felt you move and the knowledge that you are ours forever!
Kacie, no matter what happens in life, we want you to know that we love you and that we always will! We have already given up a lot to have you in our lives and I know there will be a lot more that we will give up for you but you are so worth it and we wouldn't have it any other way!
We are so anxious to get to know you and see what joy you can bring to our lives.
Scared and nervous?
Absolutely!
But there is no doubt in our minds that you will bring so much happiness and enrich our lives a lot.
We are so excited for you to get here and can't wait to hold your little body in our arms!
Love,
Mom and Dad
